I have a question.
Why is it every single time I get into the ‘flow’ such as daily practice, immersed in study and expansion, something comes along to knock me clean out of it?!
Why does this happen? Am I being tested? Kinda like - yeh so you think you got your shit together Sam - well here try this, see how freakin’ calm you are then.
It's like as soon as you learn something, BAM you're given an opportunity to put it into practice.
I'm not gonna lie. This is where I fall back down. Everytime. I react in precisely the way I know is THE WORST way to react. It's all well and good regurgitating all that I’ve learned to others but when the shit hits the fan I tumble straight back into ego-land.
HOWEVER, I am quick to notice this and change direction/thoughts to a higher vibration. What did I learn from that? Why did it even happen? Why did I let it trigger me? Why didn't I just do some god damn left nostril breathing?!?!?!?!?!?!
It’s always an invitation to get curious.
It an invitation to remember I’m human here for a human experience. And Also to not give up. It's easy in these moments to throw my hands up and give up, walk away, wonder why the hell I even embarked on this journey. Go back to numbing out daily.
But I don’t. I put into practice the tools I've learned and I change direction. I choose to keep going and as soon as I make that conscious decision, all becomes lighter again. The clarity returns and I are ready to keep going. ONWARDS!